Journal Entry 2

[Kurt Hummel]

Dear Journal,

So much has happened. My dad and Finn's mom are getting married. He'll be my... stepbrother. I can't even think about that right now.

Part of what I loved about Finn was his innocence. How he rarely understood my dirty jokes and said "that's what she said" when it was too obvious to require being said out loud. I love how he laughs at his own jokes, and the confused look on his face when Rachel uses a big word.

It's all still there of course, but now whenever I chuckle at his naivety, I'll think of something that will make me feel sick.

Finn and Santana... Santana took away his innocence. I would actually rather it had been Rachel! At least she would have been just as scared as Finn. I bet Santana danced around him like a stripper and practically raped him. I can't stand the thought.

I hereby vow to stay pure until I'm completely ready, and with someone whom I'm sure I love.

I just need to get away for a while. Get my head on straight. Well, not straight (ha!), but secure.

xoxo
Kurt